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Monday, December 27, 2004

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 03:25:35 GMT

Man, I'm ready for break to move along. I WANT INDOOR NOW! and I want DRUM CORPS NOW! haha blah. shit needs to change quickly. So, I'm trying to explain to a person the concept of a reoccuring event in my life. It's very frustrating so I'm trying to quit and they aren't letting me. so oh look, this is the part where I go away and be happier elsewhere . haha. I'm over it . I think that I want an English muffin now. I need someone to talk to that will just listen so I'm going to try and find that now. Bye~!

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 01:35:31 GMT

Merry Christmas everyone! I loveyou all.

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 18:40:55 GMT

Man I know shit happens... but this is starting to get so old. I'm just so annoyed with them fighting all the time. If you don't love someone then why stay with them. WHY . Why let someone treat you like shit when you deserve much better and you know that you've tried your hardest to keep things alive. I just don't get it. Maybe because I'm not them but if you're going to try to keep a family together then you need to do things the right way... and right now, they're not. not at all.

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 19:40:36 GMT

I'm not really doing much of anything right now, besides the fact that I'm extremely bored since my counsins are gone though, I'm good. Geoff is home today and I don't know what to think. Currently my sister is sitting here drawing ON THE DAMNED computer chair, and I think that Dan might even call me today. well hot diggity dog batman . Anyway, I have to go run the sweeper now and do something productive. I love you .

bye

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 04:41:02 GMT

So my day has been mucho fun, spent it with my cousins. This morning chelse, drew and I went out in the field with the quads and did doughnuts in the mud and snow. you know how we do. haha. Umm, and then we came in and got cleaned up and threw a suprise birthday party for my mommy :) She was so mad because we told her we ate christmas dinner without her and then she got to AB and Martha's and we came out from another room with a birthday cake and she ran out crying because she was having so many emotions at one time.. I think lol. It was good times and stuff, and then we came back here and had a mini christmas with Rob, Drew, Dana, Aunt Joy and then my mom, dad, and sister. It was good times also. yeehaw.

Monday, December 20, 2004

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 00:57:27 GMT

So, I'm losing my best friend. But I'm losing her to something that's been a desire in her heart for years now. She deserves to go and I'm so happy that she made it.

Allaina,

You've always been there for me. I'll never ever forget all of the times you and Jami and I spent together during down time, laughing at people across the floor, or all of the times that we made naked time out to be such a damned good time ! haha. I've gotten close to a few people at corps, but none have come so close to me as you have. You're an amazing person with a beautiful spirit and soul and you deserve nothing more than to get exactly what you worked for. Capital Regiment won't be the same without you. I'll never forget trying to learn how to make paper airplanes, or having our heart-to-hearts about life and the things going on outside of corps. It'll be really weird walking through the food line on break and not seeing you there, or getting smacked or punched. I'll definitely miss making your hair beautiful too. All the tears that I'm crying right now are tears of happiness yet they are a realization that I'm in a sense "giving up my security". You're one of the only reasons that I believed in myself to come back and try again and I really hope that you know that. I know that with whatever you do, you'll come out on top no matter what because you're awesome and that's all there is to it. You had better take care of yourself and definitely call me on the road. I know that on That Saturday night I'll be looking down the field and seeing you there. We've got a bond like no other and I'll always love you, no matter what happens, no matter what field we ever march on and no matter what may cross our paths. I'll always be here. Take care of yourself girl. See you later......

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 21:01:33 GMT

So, my mom's CVS Christmas party is about to start soon. There are about 20 people coming and bringing their kids, so I guess that makes me the designated babysitter. I'm excited though because Janice is bringing her new baby :) and I looove little little ones. So yeah, anyway I dunno how long this stuff will last tonight but I guess it doesn't matter. Kristy will be here so at least someone from class will be around. Good times. I'll write more later. PS. ROB and Drew come tomorrow :) yay for family that I like

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 15:50:23 GMT

On the 12th day of drum corps my true love sent to me.......12 hour bus rides
11 minutes of down time
10 chartered busses
9 hours of visual
8 wife beaters
7 forms of punishment
6 laps of running
FIVE AND FIVE
4 uniform changes
3 water breaks
2 holey shoes
and 1 anal caption head

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 04:30:55 GMT

Please disregard the picture. I don't have any new ones... and besides... that's the face you'd make if you let AJ braid your hair... I actually didn't even let him, he just let himself. Crazy little bastard.

Friday, December 17, 2004

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 21:20:00 GMT

Right now I'm just sort of hanging out, thinking about a lot of things and listening to some John Mayer. But only one song, called Neon. I really dig it and I think you should all check it out. Anyway though, a lot of things around here are becoming extremely busy, especially with the holidays coming. Tests and family coming etc; On top of that stuff I'm trying to get over being sick and possibly having strep throat yay :) haha. So, I'm excited that my cousins will be here this upcoming week and then thursday is the end of everything which is exciting. Especially since this means that He will be here :) I'm really excited to see him, really excited. Things get so out of whack and no matter how bad it gets, he's there to say that he loves me. I made the realization today that I'm lucky to have someone that close to me. Hm. Anyways, I'm still not really sure what to get my sister or my mom for christmas. Possibly get chelsea some new cd's and maybe some new candles and a certificate for a day at a spa for my mommy. I dunno. I bought my dad a mouse. I know that it sounds really really stupid, but he can have it on his desk at work! lol and it will be funny, so that's fun.

I'm really excited for indoor and everything, especially drumcorps. Capital is going to do extremely well this year and whatever they do. I can't wait to hopefully be there in that atmosphere with all of those people. Everyone who goes, really wants to be there so it's awesome. The staff is extremely stellar and the people are amazing. There seems to be no fighting or drama that gets out into the open, which means no one is going to kill eachother. I realize that eventually things will happen which could be bad between people. But overall I think things will be really amazing. Capital Regiment will make it in the top 12 in 2005....No Doubt.

I've come across a lot of different things lately, and made some interesting observations. The way people treat relationships that they have. They're so often taken for granted...I don't know it's something that bothers me, it obviously can't bother me that much because there are much larger things to be concerned with. What do you do when you find out that someone really close to you has been lying to you and you can't confront them about it because it will damage a lot of relationships and possibly push someone off the edge? My answer so far is...Absolutely nothing. Oh well, that's the way it has to go for now. I just want to get out of here and away from all of the shit that's been happening. I need to be gone all the time with indoor and school and then hopefully tour will get me out of here for a long time . Basics will definitely have me gone until next Christmas. It doesn't seem so far away, it should.. but it doesn't.

I suppose that I could go out tonight to see Ahimsa and The Paxcecilia play at the firehall, buuut I'm not really in the mood for that. Maybe I'll go see Lemony Snickette's new movie! I really want to see that lol. I love Jim Carrey and the type of screenplay used for the movie. And look at this, I wasted a lot of space finally lol. so I think that I'll go now.... later on kids